Hi, thanks for your support,  I did look up the info and in
Ca I saw a office in Bakersfield, which  under 2 hours away... 

Was that 3000 for uppers and lowers and the mini implants how many  mini implants does that include..

I so appreciate hearing encouraging words, its been a while  since i was on here, I use to be on all the time, it hleped me so much to do what your doing encouraging other people.... 

I recently went back on anti depressants.. because after actually my dentures  that I got a few months ago, I actually by way of a miracle was able to pay for them. but they are giving me the same issues.. if you read my profile then you know the problems I have with them, actually now my bottoms are pretty good, its the tops... sometimes it seems like Im going to be fighting this battle for for ever... but I am going to check out the affordabe dentists office in Bakersfield...

They even have gift certificates... isn't that cool....

Many blessing on you my sister who has empathy and  compassion...

Kat  

Hi, Joyce,  thankyou for your kinfd words and understanding...It is one of the most debilitating things I have ever gone thru emotionally and phyically in some ways..I have been disabled for other things for quite some time.  So many people call it cosemetic surgery, well many for a few, but its our health, I have to put in a plasic like thing when my teeth are out because continuousy bite down and swallow too much saliva which makes me nausous, and causes added heartburn... Im such a people person, although as of late I have been staying in more and more and starting to gain wait because my teeth or out more then in..   My last dentures that I got last Jan or Feb the denist said I could get mini implants  and they wouldn't be as costly.  Its just that the roof on my denture or my previous dentures will no fit right so now I need to see if I get the palet part taken off and mini plants on top maybe 4 would hold it good.. I still have not idea where I get the money it would be a 1000 a mini implant. and I don't know what other hidden costs there would be.

Well I have probably went on too long, I'm sorry but I believe you know exactly what Im going through...

Your aidmate,,

Kat

Hi, my friend its been too long.. I haven't been helping my friend for awhile now.. The new dentures that I was so excited about, have for some time been giving me the same issues I had with the first 2 sets... 2 steps forward 1 step back.. But I am keeping my chin up.. Would you mind giving the info again, I will call and talk to somebody.. I can't continue like this for many reasons phisical and emotaial.. How are you doing these days... are your implants working out? I have missed our communication.. have a blessed day.. and old friend..........Kat

Thank you  so much,  and God bless you too.  :)

Kat

I'm back,  those are my new dentures,  that by way of miracle I was able to get.  The dentist is suppose to be one of the best,  but I'm so sorry to say, that after 3 months I think I have had them,  the roof of my mouth is starting to give me the same issues :( :(  wont somebody please please help me to get even 2 implants or mini implants,   the dentist said I could use mini implants if  these dentures didn't work out..   which they are only 1000.00 each compared to 2400.00 each.  only 'ha'.      Well those of you have read my stuff no my issues and I'm starting to get depressed again..

I'm fighting it though.  I have so missed comin on here and reachin out to others in my time of need..  it really does help.

So if there are any dentists or oral surgeons out  there that will help me, or give me a discount..  I would gladly be a poster child/adult for implants.

This is the best website,  people do care here, we may not have much finances to help,  but we have hearts of gold.. 

Well I will keep it brief this time.... Thanks for reading this and if you know ANYBODY that does teeth impants mini or otherwise that can help please let me know... I will put in a pic of me without  my teeth either in here or another post.. I think one my post there is a pic without teeth.. 

Its not about looks, yes I do look better with  teeth,  but its about health, and living, and not isolating and wishing I would die at times...  most of the time I try and keep a clear head.

We have to keep reaching out to people, and sharing our stories eventually somebody will hear and help...

Thank you

Kat   :)

Hello,  hope you are doing good.   Its so nice to live in a world where we all have a right to our opinions,  which this man shared and you shared and now I will share my opinon. 

I believe the word of God is wrote by man inspired by God,  now everyone doesn't have to beleive it, and I have seen people healed of Diabetes and many othe health issues,  now God doesn't heal everyone, and that is up to Him.  Ultimately for believers when I die, Im going to a much better place.. 

No one can take these beliefs away from me or anyone if they have experiened relationship with God thru His Son.  Its like going out in the rain and experienceing how wet it is, and then having some one else say  it doesn't exist...  If there has been no real experience or relationship,  you or anyone can sway some one to their own beliefs.

I was forced has a child to go to church and I hated it.   As a adult a got involved in many different things includin the occult or as some call it Wicca or they serve a Goddess. 

If that is what works for someone, thats fine.    If you ever want to know a little more about where I'm coming from,  I'm open to share.

I think you are a great person, who has been through got to go  im late...

thanks my friend, its good to be able to start coming on again.  I use to use the fixodent powder but only worked for a very short time, now I'm experimenting with the adhesive.   Learning to eat alll onver again.  Stay cool my friend.

Kat

Hi, thanks for the southern remedy.  I appreciate it I finally have dentures and I was told my mouth would not work them.  I guess I will find out, with help from you and others.  Any other hints about what to use that works the best to keep them in ????   Thanks again.

Kat

Hi,  I appreciate reading what you wrote, there alot of people that  come here that have horrenous things happen, I multiple abuse sexually and other ways that wouldn't edify anyone. When I came here which was last June I think, I didn't ask for money.  The help I was trying get was for teeth implants,  I  found when I got here there were so man

y people hurting in everyway possible, and I itenifed, so I just wanted to encourage people and build up no matter what there situation.

Believe I do understand your pain, I several severe depression times, and I would end up in the hospital because of wanting to die.

So its only natural do want to help people in way I can, I don't have money, sometimes just listing to someone is far more benefical that money.

I look forward to comminucating with you.

Kat

Never give up, I came here last year, desperate for help, and ended up encourageing otheres.  Now I think I have a dentist that can make dentures, that might work in my mouth if not I would be able to have mini implants 2 on top and 2 on bottom, which will cost way less than the others I thought would be the only ones that would work. It has been 7 years since I started this whole ordeal, but I just refused to give up.  Thanks for all of your help and prayers and and encouragement.  I know with times as they are I'm far from out of the woods, as well as a whole lot of other people.  Just don't give up on anything and mainly on your self YOU ARE WORTH IT,  Hang in there and help others while waiting for your miracle.

Make it a great day and give some one a smile the one thing that benefits all and cost nothing!

Love and Blessings on all of you on Aidpage, the ones I have agreed with and not, we can all agree to disagree at times. :) :) :)

Kat

Hi Jen,  your welcome.   anytime you need to talk feel free to write, I will answer you with in a day,  as soon as I get your post.

Life has took a turn for the better for today, I know that any time it can go the other way.  When it does I remember the few times that life is good and try my best to be grateful for my speech, my legs, arms the air I breathe.   Pretty soon, life isn't as  bad as I thought.

You make it a great day.  I so appreciate your commet.

God bless,

Kat

Hi, its been awhile,  I came on to say don't ever lose hope.   We don't know whats around the corner.  For those of you that beleive in God and awsome power and love for us, God came through I went from having nothing and almost losing hope but I never gave up on God. Out of the blue someone I knew a long time ago was online, and I knew her mom from 30 years ago.  Her mom had fallen, and needed some care at nite and on weekends. Nothing hard because I'm limited in what I can do very limited.    It has truly been a miracle she is paying 15 dollars and hour, I'm on the way to getting my teeth implants, well not literally yet.  I have almost a quarter of what I need and I did that in a month a little than a month.

So hang in there, keep thanking  God no matter what if your a believer if  not.  You do whays works for you and I will continue    to   pray everyone gets a miracle.

Make it a great day. 

Kat

Hi,  Thanks so much for your detailed reply, you understand what I'm going thru.  I'm limited to help because of being on Medi-Cal.  I'm calling a place thats sometimes helps disabled people with teeth or lack of.  Hope you have a very Merry Christmasl.. thanks again

Hello, just wanted encourgage anyone who gets caught up in life, don't ever think its too late to come here for a cyber hug, a prayer, or a referral to someone who might help with your problem. 

I have been gone  a few weeks not near my computer to write, but this is like place is almost like a home and I'm a homing pigeon.   My old fears I'm facing today like the one that says, you messed up you cant go back there to get help or to encourage.   Well I fought that feeling and  here I am.

So please if I can give help to someone by way of any of my experiences that you may have read on here.  I would love to help you and otheres as well I call them "angels on assignment" on this site  amd they are truly gifted and have so much insight and love for people they haven't met and probaly  never will.  

I hope to have some time soon to come on  and encourage and give ideas to those who struggle as I do very soon.

Just wanted to quickly say I haven 't forgotten my family on here.

God Bless and make it a good day..

Kat  meowwwwwwwwwwwwww.

I haven't heard from the Mexico lady or Sandi Sandav lately.  One thing on this site there alot of that are hurting and we get our feeling hurt too easily.  So remember we all love each other. I want the best for all of my aidmate friends.  I know they do me too. 

Happy Thanksgiving to Emil and the Wizard,  we arel all blessed because of this wonderful site.

Kat

thank you, I have not heard from you in a while if you  are still interested in helping tplease let me know. I would understand, but I'm not giving up, I went through alot  with my kids with they were growing up as you did. Now I have a good relationship with my grandkids that live in town.  I hope my mouth doesn't get me fatally sick, with my Barrets Espagas from the acid.  I'm about to give up on bottom teeth ant just see about getting the special dentures and 4 top teeth implants, just so I get eat and leave my teeth in for then a hour withot gaging.  I love to laugh and smile, but I think people feel sorry for me or trip in some way when they see me laugh or eat, espially when I try and gum food at a resturant, I feel like everyone is looking at me, and they when I start to choke because I haven't chewed good enough with my gums, its not a nice site and it can feel terrifying.. So please let me know something, thats good pr, to follow thru now and then and touch basis, and if you can't me just say so, I rerespect you Nancy and honor you for the help and work yo do to help others. You should get paid, you do alot with the people you help, so getting your cut is only fair.. Just please don't leave me hanging, the last time I hear from you was about a month ago and you said you were working on it.  My memory isn't good but I'm totally incapcitated look at my youthful face, does that like some who cant keep track of her posts or helping others.

No, and like you I love to help others. so pleased respond, this is the second time I've wrote you this week, please..  I will either know to continue to have hope ant I can do this with you, or I will focus on looking else ware, just good ethics to let someknow, I know your busy, bur please..

thank you so much, I really enjoyed or short conversation by phone, but it was a bad time for me then. Things have smoothed out some..

Always and aidmate and one loves helping others..

Kat

Hello Nancy, my memory isn't totally gone I have not heard from you in quite awhile. I know your busy and if they cant help me or you decided you didnt' want to I wish you would just tell me. I'm coming out of horrific 2 months, but I'm determined not to be a vicim. I spent my first 40 years deeply depressed and wanting to not be alive, Until I came to terms with my childhood, and figured people did there best and had to forgive alot abusers.. Please let me know whats happening.. thanks Kat

Hello Mike, I really can identify  on many levels with you, I went through the debt thing twice before I finally realized, oh yeah you pay them on time and try and give more then the minimum.  Call every now and then and ask them too lower your interest rate, sometimes they will, especially if you have one the several offers that  come from the credit card sharks circling out there waiting for a feeding frenzy knowing that we always  can't pay. and tell your creditor if you won't lower my credit interest I will transfer to so and so..... I will tell you of a book, that made a HUGE difference.   I'm 57 and as I said once when I was younger then you and not very responsible  I messed up.   Finally got okay again, then got in the credit card circle wat of thinking, oh this is way too easy I will pay this, and then the late fees and pretty soon all your paying is late fees. 

 Speaking of God, I prayed this last time because my husbands credit, this husband,  been married 7 years this time I think. His credit was good so   I would buy stuff thru him and his credit kept getting better and better.   Finally  a someone gave me a chance again,  one said yes, and I did get a little excited at first, and got a few more cards then necessary but didn't put much on them,  but just asking for a lot of cards in a short period makes your credit score go down..

Anyway I payed off 3 small ones of individual revolving ones, because this guy that wrote the book says why have a Target, or Walmart or any individual card, when you can have one visa or MC that will work and not all of the credit loops and fees for many cards. 

The title of the book is Debt Cures by Kevin Trudeau and I was so impressed I learned so much about  how alot of the creditors tricks , and fear tactics that these other credit sharks  use,  and their is a statue of limitations on paying off  crediors its different in different states the longest being 6 years I believe.   that's it and then they sell off your debt to these credit sharks that send you letters trying to play lets  make a deal WRONG.. any way I am finally a responsible person, some times I want to just say forget it,  I need 6 teeth implants not for cosmetic, we need teeth to chew food to digest properly.. right now I would settle for 4 implants and special top dentures. 

In all of the pictures you see except for 1  I think I have without any dentures the rest I only have top ones in and they don't stay in long.  But I'm praying and choosing to believe one of these days  will get away to have a smile on my face that is teeth that aren't making me sick.

Also your idea to open up the residential program for mentally ill people is fantastic, its not only a very good way to make a lot of money but if you truly have a heart for those if have been affected by my mental illness, - God Bless You.  I have struggled most of my life with it, but I'm able to laugh with myself and most of the time roll with banana peels I'm slipping on while walking in the streets of my mind...  Say that 3 times real fast....

Seriously my daughter is bi polar, and in denial, my sister in law is bipolar and does not take meds and almost gone to prison for behavior problems, and my brother has been on meds for over 30 years for the same illness..and works and does pretty will, I hate stigma. for anything.

I think some people just want say, people use mental illness for a excuse for bad behavior, well maybe some.  but speaking from my own life, there was nothing fun about being suicidal most of my teens and on up till about 40.  no fun at all, people also like to make judgement calls and say well you were being selfish wanting to die,  when you had kids, all I can say is, if you have not walked in the shoes and been to that poing of really being that depressed to the point of not wanting to live in  a life with its ups and sometimes  downs,  it is still life.. a person is not being selfish, they really believe the world would be a better place without them...  showing love and compassion and tolerance for people who have trouble with their emotions and the struggles in life that others can handle is a gift, and we should all practice giving a little more understanding to people who are fighting agains there own emotions and battles in their own minds.. you never know when you could be one of them... sorry I get on a soap box on this subject to close to home on many levels.

 It takes a lot of work and acceptance,  of horrible childhoods sometimes to finally just know, that people for the most part are really did the  the best they could with what the grew up with and were emulating. love and compassion  big  things and cost nothing to give.....

I love my adult daughters, but my oldest the one with the problems still thinks I'm horrible because I couldn't emotionally handle raising her or her sister but only a couple of years...

Now she is doing the same thing, only is not dealing with the reality that she needs help, and there's nothing wrong with needing help.

I cant remember but I think I told you that book that helped me so much with the debt problems, that you asked about orringally  was  DEBT CURES by Kevin Trudeau, beg borrow, due whatever to get the book it will be worth your while, and I don't know him from Adam, but it all the difference..

You are doing way better that you even realize, one,  you're a thinker your thinking of welding school, one of my ex's was a welder made  good money, it was hard work, and   two, your thinking of having the residential home, excellent ideas.

I haven't got them but its good to have 3 good money making skills or ideas that are going to turn over money for you for you, so you always have back ups if one doesnt work it out for some reason.

I have a lot of respect for you, my youngest daughter is 33 and has horrible credit because she just got her first time at having it, and also the school loan problems.. its just growing pains.. 

Walk with your head high and know your on your way to becoming a citizen who takes care of his own debts, and maybe you can help others some day..

Keep me in your prayers for my dental work which does cause me to be very sick and medi-cal does not cover special dentures and defiantly not implants.

Also I'm having dementia like symptoms, I really hope that  passes I kinda like my mind these days....

God bless and the best of luck to you with getting your good credit score back I did.  I just haven't got money to pay for maxing out cards even for my teeth :( but I will someday....

Kat

Hi, been a few days since I wrote, I was gone, well when I'm here these days are not  always at my best,  but I I intend to make them my best again.. I choose to.

I was talking with a lady that my mother has know since there 30's and I'm 57, and this lady is always upbeat, she was married the first time to someone who cheated on her married her best friend then he went on to molest his step kids as well as me when I was a child.  She had a son and daughter whom I grew up with. She was married again to a practicing alcoholic,  who she eventually divorced and he went  blind, and died.  That was when she was married to my moms brother and had a son, that chose the gay lifestyle.  Finally she was single had a good job, and you guessed yet another man came into her life, (sounds  a lot like me)  then he seemed alright for a few years, then he started having behavioral problems in his 60's turns out he's bipolar, and now diabetic.  He also has dementia, and this lady smiles and never has nothing bad to say about people she is incredible.. Oh did I mention a few years ago she found she had a non cancerous tumor by her left ear, but it was wrapped around nerves and was told  if they operated and hit the never she would be paralyzed, so she opted for no operation., she has lost her hearing in her left ear due to tumor, suffers vertigo, and balance and memory issues and she smiles  oh she also has barrett's esophagus (as I do) only hers is in one of the stages it has advanced..  She smiles : ) shes upbeat.  This weekend she is giving my mom a break because my oldest daughter who is bipolar and in denial, has been on manic stage, and not 3 of her 4 kids are staying with my mom who is 75 almost 76 this month and my step dad whom is 9 months older than me that I dated before him and my mom got together a long time ago. 

He is a prostrate cancer survivor, now they are checking is kidneys and bladder, my mom has diabetes and high blood pressure yet she and him our taking care of a 4 year old a 7 or 8 year old and  a 12 year old that are there great grandkids, because my daughter needs to be on medication..

So this lady Marlene,  I'm voting to give "people helping people this months award"(I just made up the contest) but its not a bad idea, something positive and most of us on here need more positive things going on in our lives...

So Marlene you are the tops in my book, I may have early dementia, that's up for them to decide they are giving me aricept and namenda, to see if that helps, I'm still trying to get my 6 teeth implants, at this point I would be happy to get 4 and the special dentures I need for the top, so my barretta's esphagas doesn't progress to cancer in my esophagus.  and I know I can whine. 

 I can also be very positive and upbeat and after talking with Marlene and seeing how she has advanced more than Barrettas and a non cancerous brain tumor, a husband  that has bipolar and dementia and diabetes out of control, yet she can take a weekend and go give my mom and step dad a break and take care of my grandkids.   My I think we ought to be thankful for just having our limbs whether its 1 arm or 2 or some amount of sanity or a sleeping bag to sleep in..

I'm ashamed of my depression, and I know I can't help with some of it, but I can surely climb off the pity pot long enough to wash the ring off my but.

Quit having pity parties when you know there's know who wants to come, there all having there own, lets have a celebrate whatever we have left in our lives, that other people have been robbed of and there still out there "being people helping people"

thank you for your time, and forgive me for not wring much the last 2 months, I am coming out of this dark place thanks to the God of my choosing, and not the man or woman who thinks they are God and wants to tell me what to feel or think. I don't dread on other peoples belief systems. we need to be tolerate of each other and love and respect each other.. Who's  going to help us not the insects not your distant relatives.   Its us those who have seen the dark places and choose to look for the light at the other end of the tunnel.

May you make it the best day you can...

Kat

Hi there does that apply to a husband, if I'm no longer able to cook meals or bath by myself and am on SSI SSA  will they pay him to be a caretaker.

Well, its been awhile since I was just sharing what is on my heart and mind and I'm afraid I have to be honest because who does that help if your not certainly not ourselves and we have to help ourselves at some level to help someone  else,  so I have been selfish, and been feeling sorry for my self and "woe is me for my weeks of Marshal law ruling my life and the Marshall was "Murphy him or herself.... you know know when you think you are living the never ending nightmare, when every part of your life and soul and spirit seems to have been ripped to shreds with out warning... Well the only way  for me to have that lovely smile with those dentures that only stay in for a short time, but hey I have top dentures and they do stay in for a short time, I guess I had forgot to the look for the good the positive,  whether it be I'm sleeping in on a cardboard box on a street, its better then freezing in the snow with no food or water... I'm  one of those that for most of my life I was the victim, and  it was true and it was horrific, everything from abuse from more people in more ways that I want to go back and think about, anymore, to trying to escape all of those painful memories with a bottle or with a man or a woman,  anything so I didn't have to look at the reality of what happened and push thru and and find the lite at the end of the tunnel.  I had to quit being the victim long enough to get my off my pity pot, and wanting to die, oh how I would hate to wake up in the morning and realize I was still here to feel the regret of yesterday yet again.... and I spent about 40 plus years doing that. that blond girls picture I'm holding is me,  when I graduated from high, school and those aren't dentures that make me sick. those were my my teeth.   Now i can call my self gummy, and it wont kill me to laugh, what is the worst thing that could happen, the very worst I could get esophageal cancer and die, sounds  like a bummer, well in reality someday sometime I will die... so am I going to waste what ever time I'm allotted whining, well yeah some of it I am, I'm human and I do have bad days as my friend on this site put so good on a video of her self, and if you don't well enjoy your fantasy....

Life isn't always smiles and joyful, but most of the time if we can get off the pity pot for awhile, and try and really listen to people on here, and I'm not saying everybody on here is for real, they probably aren't but enough them are, I'm not going to try and figure out if I should or not encourage someone...

I came on here last June and before I knew it I was was  up of half the nite trying to encourage people I forgot all about my lack of teeth.. and the blond up there in the picture, when I was 18,  she was sucidial most of the time,   well earlier than that but then till I was about 40 I was in out of hospitals for trying to take my life,  I guess my point is, no matter what picture we see or lack of a picture, because I was judging the other day because people didn't show pictures in here often, but maybe its better sometimes, because we can be pretty judgemental, at least I can, and I dont like that when I am, I have to remember I have a forest in my eye before I try and take out a log in some one else's....... you know...

Any way, I'm climbing out of my pit, I didn't dig it, and I didn't throw my self in it, but it I don't want to drown in my depression, so I better try and find a way out of it, and the best way his to help a fellow human being, in some way, a cyber smile, a cyber hug a prayer  to who ever you want, I choose to pray to God..  and keep doing that,   and pretty soon you will be so involved in trying to make someone else's day better, you wont be taking your mess so serious, oh it will still be a mess, I still have only top dentures and they still dont stay in long and I still get sick, but I just dont' want to  use up my life focusing on something that I can't change at this minute, one of these days, I believe I will get my miracle and I will find a way to get the 6 teeth implants and special dentures I need in the mean time.... give a smile to someone, doesn't cost a dime and most of us our broke so you can afford that....

Well my mind is working maybe its the medicine I'm getting, that they give  to peple  with dementia problems and alzheimer's patients..  wrap your mind around that and see how it feels....  no don't I will tell you it ahead of time its now fun not knowing if you are going to keep losing your memory or the way you think and your behavior changes in not a pleasant way, and will I know my grand kids next year... no see don't go there, today I can remember still more then my cousin who is 57 also and has vascular dementia from strokes, doesn't know what catcup is or  mustard,  good looking and had money. what good is his money now?????

Food for thought,

many hugs and smiles and lots of prayers for all of your needs just remember I felt bad for having no shoes to till I met the man with no feet...

Kat 

Hey there Nancy, what a nice person, I'm trying to hang in there, honestly I am, I was on here 24/7 when this site found me, and I loved encouraging people, and giving them ideas, and then Murphy Law hit me and knocked me out, broke me in a lot of pieces.. I will survive, thanks for taking the time to post something to me...I'm trying so hard to dig out of this hole of darkness I'm in, I guess there are some that would like to be in a hole of darkness, that would not be me.. I choose to love people, no matter what, my heart and my soul were trampled, but my God is bigger than they are..... Sorry...

I look forward to good news, oh how I look forward to good news.........take care my friend..

Kat

Well, I have learned yet again, don't say it can't get worse, LOL I have to keep laughing,its good medicine or so they say,  "they" never did say what illness it was good for... so lets say its good for demetia,  I posted on this topic today, and I'm writing a little more... because I thinks a good topic, and it probably happens more then we think..MY grandma had alzhiemers when she died, she was a bit older early 80's,  I use to wonder to people who get dementia or simular things, do they know they are forgetting, I would say yes,  I think we justify alot of it because, we just  think thats part of getting older..  when do we cross the line, from senior moments, blanking out, once you cross the line it like becoming a pickle thre is no going back...no more cucmumber... It brain picklening time, interestinly enough one of the types of demteia they are looking at is called Pick's disease, if you can remember you can take your pick ,if not its DRs choice.........reality game show for people with Dementia,    "Forget It"    bad idea.... I'm fighting for my right to laugh at any and all circumstances, knowing there is always somebody worse out there..

I just would sat to you that are over 40  and not 65 yet,  and you are having short term memeory issures alot, behavior changes mood swings that arent normally how you are.  I even have balancing promlems... For months I have been knwo as Queen of forgetting, I can't leave the house with out going 2 or 3 times to make sure I have everything I need usually I don't.... I just made jokes about it.. I would think twice about the jokes and maybe eat some crow and call your Dr,  get a refferal to your dentist, no thats not what I met, sorry. a refferal for the neuroligist, preferably one who specilizes in  dementia of all kinds, and of course alzheimers.... 

Knowege is good it gives you some sort of securtity that you what is happening to you, as it is taking place.. I don't I vasuculate between being smart and know about this or wishing I was totally dumb and not a clue to what I am talking about.. REALLY

I have angry outburst s towared my husband, I have never been angry at anyone  not like I have the last few months except at myself. I knew something was up, that just wasn't me, I wish it had been me...

trying to to find words for everyday things that u normally don't have to think to get then. now I use words, not all of the time, Thank God,  but I use little or big descripsive words sometimes more then one.. thats when I started looking at the red flag for a moment and then turn away..

I know there must be a website out there for support and humor for people who are in there 40's and 50's that are going thru this............

I''m really not wanting to look at this, that won't make go away, so please any refferals, not money, not a car, ok I will take 6 teeth implants and special dentures, other than that..  Just support and people who are justing, please I'm desperate to talk to some other people my age or yonger that are suffering form sort of demtia.....

this is a whole new ball field, so BATTER UP>>>>>>>>>>

thanks for you patients with me, and putting with me when, well I wasn't really around to put up with..

Now I am back, the Dr started me on Namenda I think for my memory issues..I go back in less then 2 weeks, I'm going to ask for  neuroligist that understands dementia...Wish me luck.............

Make it a great day.

Kat

Am I that easy to forget????   I have been having memory problems for awhile, the other day I couldn't rememember the word short term, so I was saying immediate memory problems, putting words that kind of desribe what Im trying to say, I do that alot, and I'm not normally that way I love writing and I'm normally pretty witty.  I have had anger outbursts that I never use to have except towards myself.  I had a horrendeous 2 months, I thought I was tramitized as a child, and I was, that feels pretty minimal compared to the last 8 weeks could be longer, who keeps track of time??? I'm putting things in wierd places, now we all do most of this stuff once in awhile, and as we age maybe more but this is, wayyyyyy more.  I've wanted to blame medicines, which could have contributed to the problem, self abusive hitting on my head, not that long ago when I went thru my unspokent trama, the emotional pain, well it was more than I could handle, sorry, I'm not a super hero, I'm flawed, I can put on make up dress up real nice have my hair done and nails (if there is money to do that) I've lost weight do to, diet pills, prescribed and taken correctly and due to no hunger because of my emotional trama... Who's in control now????  I probably sound almost snyical, I usually cant stand synical people, who knew. who remembers, remembers what????  OH synical,  I certainly hope that is not going to be part whom I am going to be thru this metomorphis, wouldn't that be a crock, I love people, love helping people, yeah it would nice to get money, but I love to help just for the reward of the smile of gratitude, "gut thank you's", thats what they are.

When I was young, did I say that, I am young, when I was younger, 18 or end of hight school, I wanted to become a phycisrist, now all they do is write out medication prescriptions, and hospilize people, so I've demoted what I wanted to be to MFFC or LCSW.. talk to people, listen to people.

I was joking alot yestereday about this whole demtia thing, what else you going to whine, ands say wheres the cheese,, nahhhh,, there are million jokes you can come up traveling the road that you will eventally, forget and say "road" with this blank stare. I'm not looking forward to that... Alot of you have read my blogs, Im the girl with the glass of water half full, what was full again,,  thats what I feel like....Does it really matter if I have Pick's dementia, frontal lobe demtia, lewy something there I go... or does matter what caused it, I think not now, I think learning to  cope, deciding it I want to go into assisted living home.... and I wanted to work in those places because I felt so bad for these people who have lost their lives, in a moment, because of cause in their brain..

What matters is how am I going to be treated, by friends,loved ones, family that one hurts, 6 grandchildren, as I was looking at my youngest yesderday, thinking what a beauitful child, no she is shes mixed mama cacasion and dad afro ameircan... Miss Makayla..  Broke my heart, and it will break my daughters heart, I wasn't availabe not like most moms when my kids were growing up, looks my mind wont be totally available, as my grandchildren are growing up. When? Where? How?   espially "when" and "where"  wish I had a buck for every time I say those words!

I thought I was desperate, because I was needing, still am "teeth implants" about 6 would have been good... at least when I past the mirror I would say there a pretty lady instead of oh theres a pretty lady what  happened to her teeth.. OH WELL, NEVER EVER SAY IT CAN"T GET WORSE! IT CAN....

I was at the emergey last Fri I think, and they looked at me and said you seem confused, and you are dehydrated, and when did you eat your last decent meal?  OUCH  did I look that bad, I felt pretty bad...

What part did stress play in this, stress alway plays a part in our phisical condition??? Did my unmentioned trama,  play any part in this, again, best to try and let it go.

Well I have had more postive things in here, but occasionaly I have to stick to reality and reality isn't always pretty, and nice and neat....  I have to go back to laughing and makeing jokes, its just easier....

If anyone knows of support groups, or anyone in CA that specializes, or trials being done for  Picks disease, or frontal lobe demtentia,  or any kind of dementia that hits you at a younger age then 65, as I  said I will be 58 in about 7 months....

Please, help me with this, this is not something I have looked into much, unless I forgot.. little memory humor..

I will be a schcolar on all of it, too bad I will forget it.... Please I really am serious, or if any one out there has youner onset types of demetia, if your still able please message me where I can some support....

Thanks so much,

Kat

Hi, well its been awhile, this time my teeth or lack of them usually is what is my primary issue, but now they are having me take medicine for dementia, I think it might be frontal lobe type eg. Picks dementia... I don't know what to say, I'm not shocked but then I am.  I'm going to be 58 in May.. other then no teeth, when I have my dentures in I'm still not real hard on the eyes. 

People say its not about looks, I live in the real world believe me, I "m not a beauty contest winner, but I will say my looks and body have gotten me jobs in my life. Not to proud of that, just a fact.. I don't really like that part about the real world because I or you are more then what we look like on the outside..

Now after 8 weeks of Murphy's law, I'm facing Picks disease or Frontal Lobe Dementia...  That makes me very angry, I like my brain, I'm not a genius but I still like my  brain...

I have been joking all evening with my husband with this, he is not supportive,  I don't think he's capable   of being supportive, but I really need a support group, online would be wonderful, if you know of any  support groups with people with dementia that started earlier than most people who get it..

I'm going to go and figure out where did my life go. I really could use some in encouragement I don[t ask for that often I prefer giving it. but I do need some encouragement tonite.  thanks

Kat

i will try again don't know why my comment didnt go thru.. are you taking meds for valid pain  issues or are takyou just hooked on pills..'

there is a difference I have back problems bad back problems, and I use to be on alot of meds, and I hated it so much I went off cold turkey.. Was horrible I ended up in the hospital for 2 weeks missed my dads funeral.  horrible time.

then because of my back I had to start takeing meds again, this time, i still hated taking the  meds, and tryed again, and still came of to fast. the first time I got very parianoid and delustional. this time I regonized what was happening.

long story short, I now take meds again but I take the least I can to get by..

I would try to go on web sites there are a lot of good people that will give you good suggestions.. God bless hope i heled a little.

kat

Hello Emil, just wanted finished 5 weeks of "murphys law" what could go wrong did.. apologys for not being here more.. I also tried to edit my original profile/blog and I guess I didnt do it right.. if you can suggest someone in here to help me with this I would apprecitate this.. I have to stay busy on her helping others. otherwise I'll be fighting depression.. takes too much negitive energy... thankyou so much. I'm still telling everyone I talk to about aidpage... and will continue to do so.. Thanks so much Kat

You are a beautiful lady, and sincerly pray and hope your get your little girl, I will be watching and looking for leads for you. God Bless Kat

I have enjoyed are interaction on here, but I have to stand up for what I know to be true. You don't have to believe it,  it doesn't change the reality. of it.   I don't usually answer people this way.   But u opened the can of worms, so to speak.  I'm very saddened,  by what you wrote, don't bother getting tissue,  our for me. For I know with out a doubt the things that you have wrote, to be not true.  His so called resurrection, I have to as a person who is alive, literally because He was born to die for me and you.  I'm appalled, that you actually are so deceived, but that is why its called deceived  deception is a horrible thing, there are many pastors that are received also. 

 I feel bad that you have been so blinded by whom ever,  that you could make such statements when you ever experience something, that would be called hear say,  and thrown out a in  of court of law, I  on the other hand  am speaking from something,  that I and countless others have experienced.... 

You can say all day how rain does not exist,  put if you  have not gone out in it, felt the wetness of it on your face,  and watched  water puddle up and get you all wet.  I  don't think you are in a place to make a judgment call, unless you are willing to experience the truth of it , and then, you as all of have a right to a opinion.....  its not about,  when He was born. 

 Its about  why He was born, and that to come here and live a perfect life, and still suffer,  and  then go to  the  cross, having done , nothing except love you beyond anything  that any of us have ever experienced.   '

WELL for a lot, a whole of believers  we do believe the Word of God  to be true... Is not a financial,  but I do believe love is the way to reach across any obstacle  of color race or any thing. rather  than making hurtful statements, let us encourage one another with  with hope, and  caring for each other just because we are alive and count not matter what your belief system is. 

Oh yes,  He has claimed He and the Father are one,  over and over in the book of JOHN, but then that would require you to believe in the Word of God.  In every statement you have  made pretty much, I dispute and a child of God,  I have that right.  '

 He has said it, and I believe to be so. I feel really sad for you to have stumble thru life,  and you have a good heart I sensed that,   but  someone did a # on you friend.  A lot of us not all of course, speak this way because , we have been loved beyond,  all  human understanding, and this is why I love to help people, I do not like preachy people, and I know that is how I am sounding and I hate that, so forgive the way I have perhaps presented, but since I'm not perfect this is what you get... :)  because  all any of us that believe this way, love others as He did, for He is love..  We help each other,  or I do because of my great love for people , and that comes from His great love for me.  

I don't pick and choose , and put people down for what they believe to be is true, and I certainly wouldn't try tearing them apart,  like a shark and then ( laugh out loud) like what I just read.  I know we have  had a couple of talks, but I never saw this coming...  I am not perfect , nor any one I know except for,  Jesus. 

 People as I said, or I will speak my self  on this,  I have lived it and  experienced this,  its not a game.  I feel very very sad for you, because it seems that,  there is a part of you or so  I thought , that really  cared about people,  but after reading this post. Most of things I read were hurtful , not helpful to anyone, no matter what someone chooses to believe.. coming on here and  crushing,  kind hearted  people .  Just because they believe differently than  you,  won't work,  one because we  who believe this,  know  and have no doubts,  about who is Lord in our life..

I really hope you still want to speak me, I was enjoying our visits, and talks, I would be more than happy to tell you my story or some it.  For it would take several books to put on paper, but I'm here and alive and have faith, and care for people I never met for one reason, Jesus , He lives in my heart...

How sad you would use the term lol,  for those who dont know  what that means, it mean- laugh out loud.

I try not to judge,  one because He has said not to judge, people do  though even I at  times,   but that's  not His fault He gave us a free will.

So I'm  a little upset, He needs no defense... At all, I was the one who was offended, I will get over it, just life.

The thing is it doesn't matter , if you believe in Him,  for He believes in you,

God bless you,  I really am going to be praying for you because, I think your worth it... now go, and LOL if you like,  but I will stand by all I have said.

God bless you,

Embracing the Cross, and His Great love for me,  unconditionally.  its about 5am, but I had to write you back, because you are worth it...  you can write me privately or publicly, it doesn't matter to me, I'm not ashamed of  my 'best friend"  and all he has done for me and others and continues to.

Kat

I'm so sorry things are so bleak right now, but you remember you have your children  to hug and kiss good nite, even if its in a sleeping bag on the street. Kids will usually choose a parent or parents give the choice between them and the streets,, I will be praying for you..  Kids want to be near their parents..  God sees a the big picture I don't and believer me there have been too many times I almost said forget, don even pray for me. I won't go into my stories but some of them are posted in some of my posts..  

I pray that God will bless you abundantly for your needs, and that you will have peace that goes beyond your understanding....

Kat 

Kat

Hi, thank you so much for your concern,  and sharing.  Years ago they said I had TMJ,  and treated me for it briefly.  I will check out that site,  the last specialisti I saw told me it had to do with the roof of my mouth, my mom always did say I had was mouthy..   oh well, I have to keep my since of humor.. :)  or try.  I need to ask him exactly what its called..  but its like a bump or ridges,  but I have to have a special top denture made that would have no pallet part, here comes the bummer part, 4 implants  to hold this special denture in, and 2 for the  bottoms.  that was my primary problem,  second he said  where my gag reflex sits  is also where the pallet part would go... last but not least,  me who as you can tell can be very long winded, talk forever if I could kind of person, has a mouth the size of a child...

I'm not giving up, and you have no idea how much I appreciate it, when someone takes the time to write me. Trys  to help me. with ideas,.  Believe  me,  just   hearing some encouraging words are a blessing at this point.

I lost my teeth , because, I had severe dentist phobia, really, so when I had to go see one, I wanted to make it  be  really  brief.  and if they said root canal,   I said take the tooth, and I said it one too many times.. How I regret not listening to the dentist at that time.

I empathize with your husband on the eating thing.  weird stuff is hard to eat with just gums.  rice, noodles, things that u would think would be easy..

In one of my posts I wrote about its no joke to choke, something to that effect.... I have had more choking experiences in the last 2 weeks I've had for awhile, I hope your husband doesn't go thru that,  much  its very scary, especially when your alone, and you don't know if  your are going to get the food unstuck or not. My heart goes out to you both...

I will defiantly keep your husband and  all  us    or with lack of teeth and lack of proper dentures, in my prayers, for this is our  about  health.. and not cosmetic surgrery..

Ok Im done.. sorry for the length of my my repsonse but that is just kind how I am... and lately I havent heen on here  harldy at all,  been going thur really weird stuff, I won't bore you with any it, althogh its not not not boring stuff just very sad and depressing.. but Im  a trooper I will bounce back, kind of like the cat in the hat :)

KA.

thank you again for sharing with me and trying to help.... there are good people out there, and you are one of them....

God Bless you in your needs and your wants too..

Kat

p. s.  I think almost all of the pictures , except a couple that you see on here are  with one of two of the dentures I own, I can  only where  either for a very short time.   but I really use to smile from my heart, and I do sometimes,  but mostly just because it looks better,  but its not about cosmetics, for any of us that suffer, medically because of this horrible, horrible, and at times unbearably, because we have convinced all the  right people YET that can help us.. So I empathize with your husband and with  you, its hard watching someone u love suffer and continue to suffer..  I Wat to start writing State legislatures,  ADA - American dental association. an some others, I hope your husband would be willing to get involved in helping me, when I get  the letters together.

Kat  one of the few pics I have on here with out teeth.   We need, we were to have them, they are not a luxury, need to chew food, so we can digest our food...   any  good nite...